A New Chapter

Over the years, many people have encouraged me to keep a blog. I personally always thought keeping a blog would be annoying, hard to update, and I could never think of anything really worth blogging about.

Well .... as you can see, I finally gave in and decided I hopefully have something worth blogging.

Last week I turned into, what I feel like, is a new chapter in my life. But, before I dive head first into my first blog post, let me give you a little background about me.

In the past three years, I have been in two relationships, and each time I hoped and prayed and thought I knew that the man in my life was the man I would end up marrying. Neither were meant to be. God had a greater plan for me. One that was far beyond my knowledge or what I can possibly conceive. However, it has taken me long to see that the plan God has for me may not be the dream that I had for my life. One of my dreams consisted of finding a Godly man and marrying him and having children.

But, God has shown me that, although I long for those plans and dreams to come true, they are not His plans for me right now. He has shown me that I need to let go of those plans and dreams, to give them to Him, so that He can write my ultimate Love story; His ultimate plan for me.

And yet, I have not wanted the Lord to take those dreams and form them into His ultimate plan for me. I have always been afraid that He would take my dreams and I would never get them back. I have been afraid that God's plan would be totally and completely different from the plan I wanted for myself. But, what a selfish way to live, to always seek after what I wanted and to never stop and listen to what the Lord was telling me or showing me about His plans for my life.

I still have those dreams, but God has laid on my heart, in the past week, a new view of life, a new and not so worldly way of living. He has been showing me through His Word and the book, Sacred Singleness by Leslie Ludy, that being single is not a horrible thing, like the World suggests, instead it can often be a joyful, blessed, and amazing part of one's life.

I am now seeking to give up my dreams, my wishes, to the Lord. Yes, the going I know will be hard to no longer seek to find fulfillment in a man, but to seek to find complete and whole fulfillment in the One who gave me life to breath and died for me upon the Cross. As Leslie Ludy says in Sacred Singleness, "Marriage is not the answer to the longings of our feminine heart - Jesus Christ is."

I do not know if this journey will be long or short, but no matter the length of this chapter of my life, I pray I will daily seek to glorify the Lord in all that I do. I pray I daily look to Him to be my Prince Charming, to be my fulfillment, to be my All in All. I pray I will reach the point in this relationship with the Lord when He will be more than enough to satisfy the longings and desires of my heart.

Yes, the price for this will be high, the going will be painful at times, but I am ready to seek a life of contentment no matter where this journey takes me. Costly Contentment it may be, but thus was the life that Jesus chose to save me, to save this World!

I am ready to "... run the race that is set before [me]...." (Hebrews 12:1)

And so, this is the beginning of another chapter in my life. I pray I can be an encouragement to those of you who are single and in the same place that I am in. I pray we can grow together in this new chapter of my life.